This photo was taken when we attended the Hot Air Ballon Festival 2017 last February. It’s a miniature hot air ballon put up together and it’s really really beautiful.
Sometimes I am overwhelmed when I think about rebuilding the church here in Penang Malaysia where we were sent to as a young missionary and leader .As a leader, as a mother and a wife, as a sister, I got discouraged when I don’t get the response or result that I am expecting in different areas of my life.
After listening to the lesson shared by my husband, I am reminded that I just need to do little things, and God will bless that and make things bigger!
I think through out the years I forget God works that way …
of course when we talk to people we Say that… “just do you best and God will do the rest”…
it’s like a template when someone express to you something.. you immediately reply that. I’m not saying that we are lying when we say that .. we meant that and we believe that but subconsciously our minds doesn’t…and our action doesn’t follow..
Do I really believe that I just need to do my best in my quiet time and in loving others, in my job in my marriage and God will do the rest???
There’s two extreme and I think sometimes I’m in other extreme the other times the other one…
Here’s the 1st…
Some of us.. we trust God we tell ourselves trust God! We pray God I trust you help me to trust you.. God will do great things.. God is good all the time! God will do the rest! but we never do anything, we don’t give our best we don’t act on our faith..
In my marriage, sometimes I trust God that god will help my marriage that he will change my husband one day! I expect, but
I don’t do anything, i don’t really pray for it, I’m not open about it.. I don’t decide to love my husband as a godly woman.. I don’t decide to get help then I really see that my relationship with my husband is going down!
Some of us..in our marriage, we come to a pint that can we question God and we got bitter! God I trusted you so much, how come u let my marriage become like this? But what have you done in your part?
The other extreme is this.. Maybe the first part yes.. some of us we do our best .. 120% do your best! Work hard!! But the second part.. God will do the rest! The second part requires trusting God..we have difficulty..
If I believe that God will do the rest .. Then why I got so anxious and want to be in control with everything and got so discouraged and no faith so easily??? Why am I so impatient of God?
even doing my best sometime is not enough.. why ?? because I thought if I do my best.. that’s the only thing I need things will get done! so I got tired and forget that God is there! Forgot that it’s not just through my efforts but also Gods power and will.
Then some of us the attitude becomes like.. I’ve done that before! I got burnt out ! I got hurt I don’t want to try anymore.. I give up!
Let young Christian do it not me.. been–there-done-that attitude… that’s our faith now you know!!! Married couple need to go on a date???No.. that’s for honeymooners not us!
We become faithless, self focus , independent and self centered! We acted on our experiences and not out of trust anymore.
Everytime I’m in extreme I realized The reason I get tired Is because I’m doing the work alone!!!it’s not suppose to be that way! God’s Holy Spirit want to work with me together!!
My question to myself is this: Why do I need to carry all these and want to do big things on my own if God can do that for me???
I just need to start small. God knows my capacity and my limitations so he knows we only can do so little..
If i be in both extreme I cannot be happy and God cannot use me.
This reminds me of my little victories when I am a young Christian:
1. A have a classmate when I was in university, I gave her a book in wanting to reach out to her and in turn ask her to study the bible. She became a Christian now she in US doing great spiritually there.
2. Before graduating that year We decided to just Evangelize in many campuses that week. We met a guy.l who is so open .. he got baptise, praise God!!! He even baptised his classmate after that and after few years become his girlfriend.
3. Here’s another one. There’s this guy who just got baptised in the campus ministry and he seems so quiet and serious. So me I am just a year old as I Christian I said I will be encouraging to brothers even to brothers that I’m not interested in especially young Christian because they need encouragement.. So this brother I ask him for a spendtime and Someone organised a date and change it to a date. We had a great date, he was friendly and a bit quiet still for me that time.. surprisigly After a month he ask me for a date again! I think this brother likes me right?? Hmm After five years we got married! You all know who he is! He become my coleader mission partner and a father of my child. If I didn’t encourage that young Christian brother 12 years ago I I will not be standing here speaking today.
I need to do little things that God can bless.. the big things he is the only one who can do that.. the glory is not mine! God does that because God want to be partners with us!
But if I want to se victories I need to act into something! And not just wait for God to do a big miracle!!